It's been an interesting week. I got a job and I got my feelings hurt. It takes a lot to hurt my feelings, I am not the type who is thin-skinned or easily upset. But this week, I realized that my efforts over the last three years with a particular relationship are futile. No matter what I do, it seems that it's always going to be what it has always been - a surface, polite relationship with no real substance or sharing. And you know...that's ok. Sometimes it's best to accept that and nurture the relationships I do have that are solid, good, and deep.
It also helps to complain to those in similar situations. This is where a best friend who leads a parallel life comes in handy. Britt always gives me the best advice about these things. I keep telling her to dump the teaching gig and become a counselor. She refuses to do that, but I think she should at least get paid for all the good advice she gives.
On to the better news: I got a part-time job as a fitness trainer at Curves. I'm excited about this because it fits perfectly with other things I need to do and that schedule will allow me to pursue another goal I have that will take a bit of work. More on that later.
I was thinking this week about where life has taken me. Five years ago at this time, I had been accepted to law school and was preparing to move from Oregon to Houston, Texas to pursue that dream. Three years ago at this time, I had finished two years of law school, taken a trip to Cozumel, Mexico to nurse a broken heart, and started summer session of my last year of law school. One year ago, I was coming up on my first anniversary of marriage and about to start my first legal job with a small firm.
Now...I'm on a completely different path than I was preparing for with law school. And it's the right path. The goal I mentioned above feels SO right! I have never felt this much confidence with a life path before. I've prayed and prayed about this and got the answer I need. It feels wonderful to know that this is the way to go.
I'm being cryptic, but I promise to share more when the time is right.